Yeah, the rice tacos are my fav and I made them and eating them right now on my own. Soon to be my secret recipe :) Anyways, I am skipping the party tonight, and I hate arguing with my mom. She thinks about speeding my progress becoming a deaf teacher, and I want the opposite: Just relax and take these tests such as cbest and csets in time, when I feel comfortable. I feel like I am blowing up on everyone just because of my stress. Look at the bright side, I just finished my information sheet, that has one inch margin with single spaced two paged with data work. Whew, lots of work right? Yeah!

I am looking forward to hard tests in a week and in two weeks. I am going to ace them all and more coffee :) Busy busy interning, schooling, and fashion show. That’s my life. I haven’t seen LA people for a while. Maybe I should visit them on spring break. I want to go norcal, tho :)

yuppers—
hey you guys,
i made me homemade tacos today, and my mom really did love it. maybe i am born to be mexicann. who knows?

school starts tomorrow, and well yes, i am blessed. i am challenged and made my mind stimulate thru those lectures and books four times a week. this will make me graduate in four years. did i mention, i will graduate this fall on december. oh, so happy!

made new friends. deepened some friendships into good and eternal friendships. a gift from God. want to talk to some certain people as long and good convos that will touch my heart. a word or sentence will leave an everlasting impression on my heart, while they walk away.. footsteps by footsteps fading away. a relationship is a CHOICE and a time to let go, if its TOXIC.

i really gotta focus on classes and my relationship with him, and spiritual walking in faith, spiritual warfare with my mind, so i am becoming what i dislike for so long— a conservative person. I got to use my time wisely, and use structured agenda, schedule, sttrategy, and mathematical analogy to pass my classes and my surroundings around me. Yeah, i am sensitive :)

I am back to the blogging, I love to write well. I learned that timing and action of the moment is really critical in life where I cannot reverse it back. I have to be really careful who I hang out with or what I spend time in. I found what I love to do— playing guitar and really thinking about music theories. It is how amazing the music can be visual. If a person really thought about the notes and really thought about the pattern in music, deaf person can do as well as hearing person with different perspective. I thought of sacrificing facebook and socializing for a while, but somehow I am involved in deaf community. I wish that I could be involved later, but I am appreciative of the friendships I have made over the years in CSUN. I want to be penpals and develop long-lasting friendships. I also thought about God, what he wants me to be led to and really.. thought about the positiveness of impact he has in my life— without Him, who have given Life, I wouldn’t be anything. Yeah.. I gotta read some more articles for class and then I will be back—

I am so paranoid about my deaf 484 homework, which talks about LJ Model of analyzing sign language to specifics. The thing is, who cares for now if you can memorize the signs and use them everyday. But it is cool, to read sign language hehe.

Well, I want to be a deaf rights advocate with dhh teacher on the side,

but how can I be, if I dont really socialize with deaf people.

People are selfish these days and I really have to find my calming spot.

Heh, same routine tomorrow: internship and then deaf 484 class. :D

Yeah, O worries of life!

Here I am at one of my favorite places in the world,—starbucks…

why? I don’t know, the smell of coffee does intrigue me and makes me feel like home.

I am doing internship, which is a whole new experience for me.

And also, I succumed to this verse, when I looked for “escape from everything else,” and really wrapped into my own utopia—

Psalms 88—

A song. A psalm of the Sons of Korah. For the director of music. According to mahalath leannoth. A maskil of Heman the Ezrahite.

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       O LORD, the God who saves me,
       day and night I cry out before you.

 ² May my prayer come before you;
       turn your ear to my cry.

 ³ For my soul is full of trouble
       and my life draws near the grave. ^[c]

 ⁴ I am counted among those who go down to the pit;
       I am like a man without strength.

 ⁵ I am set apart with the dead,
       like the slain who lie in the grave,
       whom you remember no more,
       who are cut off from your care.

 ⁶ You have put me in the lowest pit,
       in the darkest depths.

 ⁷ Your wrath lies heavily upon me;
       you have overwhelmed me with all your waves.
       Selah

 ⁸ You have taken from me my closest friends
       and have made me repulsive to them.
       I am confined and cannot escape;

 ⁹ my eyes are dim with grief.
       I call to you, O LORD, every day;
       I spread out my hands to you.

 ¹⁰ Do you show your wonders to the dead?
       Do those who are dead rise up and praise you?
       Selah

 ¹¹ Is your love declared in the grave,
       your faithfulness in Destruction ^[d] ?

 ¹² Are your wonders known in the place of darkness,
       or your righteous deeds in the land of oblivion?

 ¹³ But I cry to you for help, O LORD;
       in the morning my prayer comes before you.

 ¹⁴ Why, O LORD, do you reject me
       and hide your face from me?

 ¹⁵ From my youth I have been afflicted and close to death;
       I have suffered your terrors and am in despair.

 ¹⁶ Your wrath has swept over me;
       your terrors have destroyed me.

 ¹⁷ All day long they surround me like a flood;
       they have completely engulfed me.

 ¹⁸ You have taken my companions and loved ones from me;
       the darkness is my closest friend.

And as of the last sentence: “the darkness is my closest friend,” I do hope the light is my closest friend for Jesus is the light.

I have been talking to this one good friend today and life, and I can see that letting go of friends are easy to do, and when you REALLY hang out with the ones that loves you and really want to see you for who you are, then you are really joyful and happy.

I also noticed that if you don’t really be part of collectivism, as of opposed to individualism, your signing and reception are decreased… Deaf people are collective and need so much information exchanged, that is why American Sign Language is inclusive. I decided to work with deaf people, although I am nervous and really scared of the outcome.

Yeah, I haven’t gone to church for two weeks or so. I really don’t care.

I really want to take so many pictures around me and really, post up the issues that people go through everyday. That’s why I really want to meet random people and learn good stuff, hehe lol.

Well, I got to go back to work, searching for the papers in spanish and make a portfolio out of it. fun, eh?

Just like I am moving to the new place

I moved to the new blogsite: http://goshforit.wordpress.com..

I want people able comment me.. :)

lala tumblr! hello wordpress.

—in one thought—

awe in my whole life,

how accomplished I am

how easy-going I am

how open I am…

Today, I hung out with this one girl, who is so happy about her life.

Her name is Alexis Bennett, who has aqua eyes with blond hair…

The way she talks, the way she looks at life…

of the quote—” If you really want to learn something, you could learn it.”

really helped me to see who she really is,

positive girl who has no care in the world, except dancing in the music.

Gosh, I want to be like her…

I dont want to give a care who I text, call, talk with… worries about a bit who would like me or not…

I want to be in tune with nature, which helped me get through the day…

the conversations with her was good, always filled with adventure.

I want to leave to East Coast someday!!!

Tomorrow, a relaxing day again.

Will give myself two weeks of no texting. Only emails allowed :D